It doesn’t matter how much I try… I can spend hours fixing my hair, look myself in the mirror up to 10 times because nothing I wear fits me and even when I leave the spa/salon I feel bad.
*looks in mirror 1* “Oh I like how I look with this on”
*looks in mirror 2* “Omg, i hate this”
and again, what to wear?
2 hours later…I’m late for my classes and most of the time I end up wearing the same jacket and pair of jeans. And no one seems to understand how hard is going through this every day :’(
"Oh but you have a full wardrobe"
I almost wanna cry.
I know it might sound superficial but when you don’t feel confortable with your body, when you get depressed everytime you go shopping because all clothing stores have only a XS or S size, when your own family comment about your weight and still the only thing they buy to eat is pasta, fast food, etc… “just don’t see it” yeah, sure , i can even smell it from my room :( and then your friends “yeah, you’re fat but not thaaat fat” … is there any difference? … no, people, it is not simple, it is NOT superficial, see?